zyxwME4754

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"Sharpen up your teeth, your dreams are more than worth defending in a fight that's never ending."
Born To Quit - The Used

Seventeen years ago... a creature fell out of my mother's vagina. They called it Valerie, and it looks like that freak in my profile picture. I make awkward faces in pictures, deal.
My music obsession? It's a passion, get it right.
The Used are my favorite band.
My Chemical Romance saved my life.
I have OCD. In no way am I a neat freak, but I have to touch things in weird patterns, and I just really hate breathing on things. I don't understand either.
Commercials for children's toys scare the absolute living shit out of me. They creep me out...
There's a lot wrong with my head and it's not worth explaining.
I talk olot. So I would LOVE if you would talk to me, but I am incredibly annoying. I will try to refrain from correcting your shitty grammar, unless either it's really bad and I can't understand you or I just hate you. Which will probably only happen if you hate The Used or MCR or any other band that I love.

 

 
 


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I don't know how to deal with this.

My Chemical Romance, my favorite band, the greatest band to have ever walked the face of the earth, just announced their breakup. My initial reaction was disbelief, then gut-wrenching sorrow, followed by anger, and then confusion. I'm still confused. There are a million things wrong with how they went about it. One short paragraph, in which there was one sentence meant to imply their breakup. They never used the words "break up" or anything like that, they said it's time for it to end. None of the tweets from the members actually said that either. I just feel like they are purposely trying to leave this unsettled, purposely trying not to put closure on this. I believe there is a reason for that, no matter what that reason is. They aren't the kind of guys to leave us so cold-heartedly. I don't know what's next, but I'll be waiting for it. They have saved my life, time and time again, and I couldn't thank them enough for it. They told me I'm strong enough to do it without them, and I can believe that now. Whatever happens, I believe we can all push through. Carry on, like they've always taught us. Although this incedent seems so wrong, so unfitting, assuming the worst we can still make it. No matter what, keep the faith. Carry on. Sometimes, we must grow stronger. So long, and Goodnight, MCR. For now.
A little advice would be cool if you're good with like social things

Uh so this is the first time in YEARS since I've actually had a crush on a guy and I forgot how this whole thing works. It's not like I'm pretty enough where I can just walk up to him and be like hey can I blow you or something I need to start a conversation where it doesn't seem like I'm trying to talk to him, more like I don't have a choice or an accident or something. He is in my guitar class, not in any of my other classes but I see him in between almost every class. I would like some ideas for either starting a conversation at an opportune moment, or purposely creating some sort of accident that causes some dialogue. Some background information: he is really really good at guitar, I don't know why he is in the class. He is really outgoing, and he has spoken to me twice. I, however, have never said a word to him. My responses have only been nodding or shaking my head yes or no. I am incredibly socially awkward, and I'm really bad at conversation. With that in mind, do you have any ideas I could realisically pull off?
I love doing my makeup.
I like doing my hair, but it frustrates me.
I don't like dressing up nice.

So don't tell me to go out without makeup.
Don't tell me not to worry about my hair.
And don't tell me to dress more confidently.

I do what I WANT.
"Depression is the common cold of mental illnesses."

My psychology teacher said this the other day. What this means is that you really don't need drugs to treat most cases. Unless you have to be strapped down and sedated to keep you from killing yourself, you can get better on your own or by talking to people. You can have moderate to severe depression and get through it without drugs. You don't need an antidepressant until you are either manic or it disrupts your life to the point where you cannot do anything. You can't eat. You either can't sleep or you can't get up. You can't do anythig a normal human would do. At that point, there would be no hiding it. You couldn't just put on a fake smile and pretend everything's okay. You wouldn't even have to ask for help because you would probably just get locked up somewhere until you're stable. If you are capable of hiding it, you are also capable of overcoming it. I did. I'm fine now. When we took the depression test in psych, the highest you could get was a 63. "Normal" is up to a 9. I got a 12. That is VERY MILD depression. Do you realize how good that is, considering just a few years ago I was suicidal? I didn't use antidepressants, I didn't talk to anyone, and I'm fine now. I did it on my own, and so can you. Talk to someone if you need to, but

YOU DON'T ALWAYS NEED DRUGS FOR DEPRESSION
These are the eyes and the lies of the taken
These are their hearts but their don't beat like ours
They burn 'cause they are all afraid.
For every one of us, there's an army of them.
But you'll never fight alone.
 
The World Is Ugly - My Chemical Romance
I f   I   c o u l d   b e   w i t h   y o u   t o n i g h t
I   w o u l d   s i n g   y o u   t o   s l e e p
Never let them take the light behind your eyes
 
The Light Behind Your Eyes - My Chemical Romance
Merry Christmas to everyone dreading tomorrow as much as I am.
Let's wallow in our self-pity together please :)
I'm sure you've all heard about the shooting in Newtown.

I live very close to where this took place. It's only about 15 minutes away. I didn't personally know anyone who passed in this tragedy, but I do know people who were close to someone who died. My mother's childhood best friend was killed. People from my school had family there. The hospital my mom works at was the closest one available. When the shooting occured, they had a lockdown and the ICU prepared to take in patients. They waited, and were expecting a massive rush of people to come in... but that didn't happen. Most of them didn't make it that long. A co-worker of my mother saw a child die... this tragedy has devastated so many people throughout the entire country. I will never understand how someone could be so heartless, but nothing I can say could take back what happened. The best I can do is pray for all who were affected, and pray that those who's lives were taken are safe now in Heaven. Some people are sick, but just know that the man who did this is burning in Hell.
School teaches you important life lessons that are not applicable in the real world.

In school, if you don't do your work, you fail.
In real life, if you don't work, you go on welfare and are better off than some people who do.
School teaches you that you need to work for yourself to be successful, but in reality you just need to steal from other people and raise their taxes and put them in a state of financial crisis because they need to buy you food and cars and homes and heat and clothes and healthcare.

School should be like real life.

If I don't want to do my work, the principal should distribute it among the smarter kids and have them do extra work so I can get good grades.